In January I will hit the most dreadful birthday in my life!
Ya! That one
I don't feel that age
I definitely know I don't look that age
But it's a terrible time in a girls life
At this age you seem to have become a misfit
You get called "Mame"
Your old enough to be a twenty something's mother!
Like try half the chicks you work with
Yes! You, your old enough to be their mother!
Let's talk Fashion at this age....
You don't want to wear anything maternally like that aweful Talbots store or Chicos yet.......
Forever 21, H&M, Aeropostale etc....
Is too young
Although I'm petite and tiny so I fit into that stuff
God! I found myself looking at sweaters in the little girl section this morning of JcPenny!
They were exactly what I wanted
And I hate to tell you this.....
They would've fit!
I caught myself and when I finally came back to Earth I was furious at myself for almost buying that sweater
Yes! It would've fit!
There are some positives about being this age
I'm fiercely independent, confident and like who I have evolved into
Yes, I like the shoe that I wear right now
Right of passage sort of thing
The mistakes of my past lay quietly
And that's were they need to be
The pages of this girls book is turning forward
Every comfort zone that has been put in front of me in the last five years I have broken
I'm turning 50!
As I stand once more at the edge of my cliff I soon plan to jump
A free fall just like they jump from
World Trade One
This next major jump
I pray this time.....
Someone will catch me
What would Carrie Bradshaw say about turning 50!