Some kind of good memories in the end
Your thankful for having experienced, even if it didn't turn out to be a permanent relationship.
Looking back on the narcissist relationship only elicits regret over wasted time, wasted feelings, wasted moments
We can never recapture.
Memories are fraught with the abuse. My narc was soo sick he told everyone "I don't love her and know I need to end it, but the sex is soo good" this makes me sick to my inner core!!! People are still stepping forward and telling me things that my narcissist said behind my back, the things they knew he was doing.
And all the while, I was innocently thinking I was falling in love with the most wonderful person I had ever met. How did I get sooo lucky. The destruction going on in the shadows of this relationship has made me sick. And I really mean sick!! This is what a relationship with a narcissist does to you.
How tormenting this was. How difficult,
Exhausting. The blaming and shaming I would experience beyond anything I had ever encountered. This was just one sick person.
The many times I had to deal with the
Narcissist emotional problems, the drama,(which I got accused of) the void, lack of empathy and neglect.
Coming into the aftershock of realizing it was all a HUGE manipulation of a predator
With a chronic mental disease, does not sit well with us when we are assessing
Our damage.
We ask ourselves, WHAT WAS THIS FOR?!
All that emotion, energy, sacrifice, all that giving we did, had to be mourned because it was NEVER shared reciprocally.
The grief associated with this costly and UNECESSARY loss is huge. We have nothing to replace it with but our regrets.
I'm left with immense sadness because I was already coming out of a hurtful marriage and only had high hopes of finally finding someone wonderful. Think how I feel to have to deal with evil all over again???!!! I just didn't deserve this. I know plenty of people that come out of bad marriages and are blessed "The second time around" to find someone wonderful. Why did I get thrown this relationship of hate. I have NEVER been soo violated in my life. I'm left with the same trauma as a women who has been raped.
But now with the help of my friend who is a professional with all this, we are going to educate the world on these predators. As more and more men and women step forward with their stories the world is going to know and hear.....
A relationship with a narcissist is not a normal relationship!!!!
YOUR RIGHT THIS ISN'T JUST A BROKEN HEART! Step forward, let us help you
Xoxo
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