He wanted me gone
He then would start a manipulative shame game to make me look like I was the crazy one. I couldn't let go. Let me go. These were the things I was hearing after him breaking up with me and then stalking me,
Calling me etc.....
I can't even write anymore.......
Looking back, just all makes me sick!!!!!
I never wanted to enter into something like this after a long term, failed marriage. I still cry, "God, why did you do this to me?!" I didn't deserve this! I wanted to be like EVERYONE else and come out of a bad divorce and find Mr. Wonderful. Others do! Why was this thrown into my mitt?!
Why can't my life just be normal?! Why couldn't he have been normal and the story would have ran, two nice people get divorced, have ALL the same life similarities and be happy ?! NOOOO!!
Of coarse not! My narc needed a women that's never been married, ( unless u go w common law thingy.... Well then, she's been married quite a few times) no kids.
Just makes me sick that I got thrown this! Why!
I can't talk to anyone about his abuse on me, no one in my hometown is educated on narcissist personality disorders. My one girlfriend, yes, she knows he's not mentally well, but she worked in the medical field and she sees it when dealing with him.
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