ME, MYSELF AND I

I'm a mom, you all know that. I have two boys. Yes, the good lord gave me boys. He knew not to give me a daughter because there was NOOO way the world could be subjected to two of me on this planet.
I always wanted boys. There great guys my boys. They have suffered through this divorce. I feel bad for them. But it's more of a money issue than anything else.
I soo want to make the world right for them again. But in a way I know this will make them stronger. They got to learn not to be coddled their whole lives. They need to make do, find their own way. Plenty of people do and it all works out.
I will say I do not enjoy being a single mom. It just down right sucks! I miss my old lifestyle, I miss the house, the routine
We had as a family. I miss cooking and baking for them. Just taking care off them.
Being divorced has been the biggest cross I've ever carried in my whole life!
Sometimes I just can't bare being all alone all the time. I have no support system. No one that understands my plight and what I'm going through.
I soo want to end these dark days of my life and find complete happiness again. Is that possible?? Maybe it's just not in my cards.