Monday, March 3, 2014

LOVE DON'T LIVE HERE ANYMORE

The buck stops here!
It's stops here with me making bad choices
You can also stop your fall from grace
And decide to spend the rest of your life focusing on healing, empowerment and a great life 
I will never lower my standards AGAIN
I will never date another narcissist 
I won't allow these people to ever get in my space again 
And neither Should you
Walk away
NO MATTER HOW MUCH IT HURTS
they don't care what has happened to you?!
No concern at all....
Walk away
The only thing your going to find is,
You just escaped the biggest train wreck on the planet
You walked out alive
Yes, you are bruised and scared
But walk away
Walk into the life God intended you to live
And believe me it was not this pathetic 
Act of crap alcoholic
Walk, walk and never look bag
If I had the power, 
I would take those years and erase them from our memories
Nothing good came from this experience 
There are no good memories
Every step you lived with the narcissist was a lie
The mental, physical, emotional and the sexual violations that went on just vile. 
Don't be broken hearted over a MONSTER
Someone in their right mind would have NEVER done this to you
Don't feel jealous of the new target
The new target has nothing
And if it's anyone that knows that it's you
You are not replaceable and the new target is not better than you
Feel only sorrow for them 
Walk
Walk into the life God meant for you to live
I did
I walked into New York and discovered 
The meaning behind sooo many things
Work on healing 
Work on you
That's what I've done
It's been the most spiritual growing I've done in all my life
I now know who I am
And what my expectations are
And it will never choose this sad lifestyle again
And neither should you 
My narcissist has nothing
And I deserve soo much better
So do you
And it's out there
I was drowning and you know what my narc did as they stood inches from me!!
My narc yelled at me!
"Swim damn it swim"
Little did he know or cared less
I was drowning
And I did drown 
He left me for dead in the water
Walked away.......
After I died in the water that day
I would emerge into a new life
A Glorious life
One not filled with his games, Drama and abuse
I would live and go onto find sooo much better
You can too
It's been a long haul but ever step has been worth it!
My new motto is, "I would NEVER go back to that again!"
To what? 
What exactly did my narc offer me
Looking back
The only thing my narcissist offered me was terror
I'm not accountable for his abusive words and actions projected unto me
Your probably asking yourself 
WHY!!!!
Why was this horrible experience thrown into my life???
I did to...,
But through therapy and education on 
Narcissist abuse I decided to do the right thing, speak out to the World
I didn't deserve this
But it gave me a platform to stand on
And a calling
We all get them
A calling
It's now my passion
Next to hairdressing
To let the World know
This is alive and thriving out there 
NPD
Personality disorders
Believe me many narcissist don't want you calling them out
Well that's to bad!
Then realize you have this and get professional help and turn your life around 
And stop your destruction
Love.....
Does require saying your sorry
It's called EMPATHY
Most narcissist lack this
They have even done MRI's on the brain 
And there's a part of the brain that shows empathy & compassion, their brains don't register this!!
My healing took many years 
But I said to myself, that's ok
Take as long as you want
You deserve only the best
Part of my healing is a daily routine of staying involved with life
Yoga
The gym
Meditation
Classes
And working with a clinical psychologist
Surrounding myself with noo toxic people 
Most of my friends are all well educated with many degrees and encourage that for me as well 
See what  healthy people do?!!
They encourage and support
Positive affirmations 
No anger, no hate, no jealousy
Now, get out there
Forgetta bout that loser 
There's a whole new world waiting for you !!!
GO, GO LIVE IT
I did 



 
 

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