HAND ME DOWN

How do we forgive an abuser

It's hard 

And yes

We must learn to forgive them all

But they are so unworthy

For healing and closure we need to

But it's so hard

Pride and ego 

Sometimes keeping us from achieving this

After all, how can one blame the ignorant

Their abuse was learned in their homes

Growing up

Being exposed to yelling, condescending attitudes, never good enough, even maybe physical violence. 

Hand me down events 

Generation to generation

Unresolved pain and lack of understanding

If you don't come to a point in your life and say, "Maybe it's me" maybe all these disastrous relationships are my fault

Change is hard 

Believe I know

But moving away to New York was my rebirth 

Opening my eyes to sooo many things

Who I was, how I was conducting my life

What I was exhuming out into the world 

I hurt a lot of people

That self centered gal a thing of the past

The many people that brought these things to my attention

Gosh, I envy  there perception 

Unresolved pain and lack of 

Meaning, you could have been raised into an abusive family, where you were exposed to verbal and physical Abuse 

As an adult you might think you've come out unscathed 

But sometimes we don't see how our 

Abuse is coming through

Mind fucking someone is abuse

Controlling someone is abuse

Your insecurities are shining through

And causing you mental instability 

I was lucky

My parents were not abusive

Growing up in my house was like being raised by the gypsies 

They loved us unconditionally and I think they found much entertainment in the goofy, dumb things we did as teenagers 

But we never really did anything that bad

And for the most part we all turned out ok

The only structure there was in my house growing up was dinner was served at 5pm and if you weren't there that was too bad.

But my parents never fought a lot

And they actually seemed to really like each other

They were each others best friends 

We all got to reach out to each other 

And put a stop to these injustices 

Abuse comes hidden in many forms 

Accountability is the toughest thing to 

Hit the brain

But when it does!!

BAM!! DOES THE DYNAMITE BANG